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[faeshim]

do you celebrate beltane where you're from?

[narcolepsy]

Ah... I have not. But I know Jasper has spoken about it. It is a fae festival for fertility?

[faeshim]

that's it! that's it! it's when the earth has warmed and the flowers are starting to bloom. nests are built, and babies have started in their mother's bellies.

you always loved beltane, even before you came to the forest. it was the witch in you.

[narcolepsy]

I... I did? I know very little about it, though.

[ he's not sure why daeshim is bringing it up, but baein feels a little odd having to admit he's not in the know when obviously the baein that daeshim knows is intimately familiar. ]

Why do you ask?

[faeshim]

[he switches to video then, so that bae can see the hope in his eyes, and hear it in his voice.]

Because it comes in two days and I...I was hoping you'd spend it with me. Not just me. But me.

[seems like there was something else...oh right.]

Oh! It's my first birthday too.

[narcolepsy]

[ baein switches to video too, and then he listens patiently, eyes widening. spend... that festival, with daeshim? sure, the vampire knows little of it, but he does almost understand most of the themes of the festival, but surely—

wait. ]

Your birthday? You didn't tell me about it! Wait—

[ sitting up straighter, baein leans in for the camera. ]

"First"? How is it your first?

[faeshim]

[daeshim fidgets, as close to bashful as he ever gets.]

I don't know the actual day of my birth...or if I was even born at all. But someone has been kind enough to let me share his.

I just thought...it was something I'd like to experience. To have people celebrate your existence seems very meaningful.

[narcolepsy]

[ oh. oh it's cute. it's adorable even, and baein resist the urge to coo, and instead his smile turns so so fond. ]

Oh... I'm so glad you get to experience it too. That you want to. I'd love to spend the day with you, and whoever is sharing it with you.

[faeshim]

[the fae looks up, flashing baein a smile that's bright and rare. the feeling that comes with it isn't rare at all, all he needs is to be talking to bae.]

It'll be at night, of course! We'll have a bonfire, and Jasper will make a beautiful cake. And dancing! Do you like dancing?

[dancing is in a fae's blood, but daeshim hasn't actually done a lot of it.]

[narcolepsy]

[ baein's smile widens, just because daeshim looks so happy, and baein can't help to mirror it. because... it's what he does. because it's daeshim. ]

I know some dance, but probably not the type of dance you're talking about. I'd love to try.

[faeshim]

You'll be good at it. I know you will.

[but honestly, he could step on daeshim's feet the whole night and he wouldn't complain.]

[narcolepsy]

Hmm, I'm not sure, but I'll try my best.

[ baein might step on feet at first yes, though he IS trained in ballroom dancing. which... isn't the same. ]

wait, i wanted to do this differently afadlkj

[faeshim]

bae, i have two matters of great importance that i'd like to discuss with you. when you have the time.

Re: wait, i wanted to do this differently afadlkj

[narcolepsy]

Oh, anytime. What do you need to speak about?

[faeshim]

first of all, jasper doesn't know his birthday.

[narcolepsy]

...I think I know when it is, if it's the same as the Jasper from my world, but... he said he wanted to share it with me.

[faeshim]

oh! i

are you ok with that?

[narcolepsy]

yes, i'm more than okay with that.

or did you have ideas about it you wanted to share?

[faeshim]

you're very generous to share such a special day with him, did you know that? but i'm glad that you are.

i want to make sure he has a happy day. even if he is not my jasper, or your jasper, i've seen that his heart is good.

[narcolepsy]

because he's special too... you are all special to me.

[ baein's heart lurches in his chest for a second before it stills again and he takes a moment to reply. ]

i want that too. and... and you're good too, you know? even if you're not my daeshim, you're still... i still love you too. and i'm glad we could celebrate your birthday as well.

[faeshim]

it was a very special day to me! i'll never forget it!

which is why i'm suddenly thinking about these things. i'm so grateful that you all were born and here in such a place with me, to celebrate these days. i'm going to make you happy. not just on your birthday, but every day. I hope I'm cursed nine times if I don't.

[narcolepsy]

i hope you're not cursed, that would be horrible! no matter what!

but... i'm, i'm very thankful to you too. i wasn't even...

[ he's typing, and then he stops, finding words inadequate. ]

i think i said it before that i felt a little lost, because at home i'm not— i can't ask for what i want because it would not be proper. i didn't think it would ever happen but now, maybe...

i don't know, i'm typing nonsense, i apologize.

[faeshim]

no. feelings are never nonsense.

[and he can feel bae's emotion, even through the texted words.]

can i come and cuddle you?

[narcolepsy]

yes.

please.

[faeshim]

[he absolutely naruto-runs to wherever bae is, near or far. daeshim doesn't fling himself at the other, but he wants to.

instead he will gently join him, pressing close while trying to make sure that they're both comfortable.]