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Good, I'm glad.

[ baein's first and foremost priority is the safety of the people important to him. even if it means safety from himself, or blood drinking, or the effects of such. ]

[ Lennon nods. He knows Baein well enough to know he wouldn't have snacked if Lennon hadn't brought anything to eat. When they get to the lack he nods to a clearing near the water's edge. ]

What do you think about there?

[ he definitely wouldn't have snacked. he would have refused. he's getting to know the routines and how to make sure of them by now. his eyes light up a little at the clearing as they make their way over. ]

It's beautiful.

[ Lennon smiles and he squeezes Baein's hand and leads him over to the spot, setting down the blanket on the grass after setting down the basket he had with the snacks for himself. ]

I like it.

Mm...

[ the vampire hums as they settle, and closes his eyes towards the breeze for a bit. he's still holding lennon's hand, if lennon is letting him. ]

Thank you for showing me.

[ Lennon doesn't let go of his hand even as he's fixing the blanket the best he can with one hand and then tugs Baein with him once he sits on it, leaning back on his free hand. ]

Mm. Just... wanted some time with you so. Thought this would be a good idea.

[ baein turns to give him a soft smile. even after everything that's happened, he's still in disbelief that lennon would even want any kind of relationship with him. or would want to get to know him outside daeshim's company. ]

I'm... I'm very glad. I didn't think you'd what to.

Why would you think that, Bean?

[ Lennon sighs softly as he looks over at him, he tightens his fingers on the other's hand. ]

Because you did not enjoy my presence at first. Because of who I am.

[ because he was connected to daeshim and he made lennon feel bad and— ]

And half the time I don’t know how to figure out my feelings. I’m not going to be enough, not… I don’t know.

I... had issues.

[ Has. Even if his issues have shifted a bit. ]

Do you really think nothing has changed for me?

[ He exhales a little and scoots closer. ]

You're enough.

... I suppose I have them too.

[ as lennon shifts closer, baein tilts a little his way, not quite leaning, but definitely not leaning away. ]

And I don't think that, I just... I suppose it's me. I'm just not great at this.

Mmm....

[ Lennon nods a bit. Perhaps they all do. He's nervous. Baein always makes him a little nervous. He can never quite tell where he stands with him but he likes him so much. ]

You're not great at what?

Emotions. Knowing how to navigate them.

I mean that's... really difficult for me too.

Mm... sorry.

Bean... why are you sorry about that?

[ Lennon murmurs, looking at him and he hesitates as he takes their joined hand and brings them up to press a quick kiss to his knuckles before lowering it again, and maybe he's just stupid. ]

Because I should be aware of that it's difficult for you as well.

[ his eyes widen at the kiss though. ]

[ Lennon hesitates at the way the other's eyes widen and he lowers his gaze, nuzzling his cheek against the other's knuckles and then lowering their hands. ]

I just... I really... care about you and want you and... I like that you need me for something too.

[ lennon's touch is warm, and baein shifts a little closer. he doesn't let go of their hands as lennon lowers them, and lets his fingers curl a little more around the other's hand. ]

Mm... you know you're important to me even if I didn't need to drink blood, right?

[ Lennon exhales softly when Baein shifts closer, at the way that his fingers curl. It’s a sense of reassurance that he can’t help but be grateful. ]

I… sometimes I’m not sure?

[ it's baein being comfortable with him, holding lennon dear to his heart and seeking the heat of another person because he's cold. ]

I am sorry if I don't show it properly.